Things that never bore me

Anagrams

Wordplay, puns puns puns and especially anything involving whatever-this-is-called, like:
mythtaken

Coining words

Etymology

Patterns in/with words.
I used to challenge myself to complete tasks like “how many words can I think up that end in ‘ii’?” or “what palindromes can I think of in 2 minutes?” or “how many words can I make out of [insert word here]” or “which words have all 5 vowels in?” or “which words have no vowels in?” – psst… I like euphoria because it has all 5 vowels in it; but I also like rhythm because it has none!

Onomatopoeia (all together now: “euphoria”… “rhythm”…)

Spoonerism

Finding words in car registrations

Acronyms, and making my own acronyms from sentences and sentences from acronyms.

Typography

Logos, especially logos that tell a story or have an optical illusion

Optical illusions (Magic Eye anyone?)

Seeing what’s revealed in ‘negative space

Seeing faces in objects:
box-face

Treading Water

I’ve not been very good at keeping up with this blog already – what a surprise. Not!

Truth be told I forced myself to take a break from aspie research because it was throwing me all over the place in my head.

The great sense of relief wore off and reality, the painful wall of reality hit me.

Whilst it’s been so refreshing to learn that everything I struggle with daily (not flaring up when someone says something I don’t like; not being defensive; not taking things literally; loud, frenetic environments; doing too much; wanting to do too much; realising I am trying to do too much; executive function- being organised, planning, getting started on tasks, following through on tasks; cleaning; tidying; impulsiveness (especially on Amazon); even getting ready for bed and getting to sleep before midnight etc.) is not a character flaw (yay)… Now, I am feeling a sense of hopelessness I suppose, that everything that I have been striving for my whole life… what I need to ‘work on’ about myself in order to be the best version of myself (for me, and for my family, and my friends, and eventually for my [future] partner, children etc.) might be completely out of reach… full stop.

I will never ‘get it’ in the moment, at the time when ‘it’ matters.

There will always be this ‘gap’ where I will always feel one too many steps behind, letting my family down in stupid arguments escalated only because of my defensiveness and reactions, saying things in the heat of the moment that I don’t mean at all, and have never felt that I could control (and now it seems I was right on that, so relief again, right here for that)…

I’ll always be running to catch up to the answers I don’t know, to the questions I don’t know how to articulate – let alone ask.

And I have been ‘watching’ myself more. Now that I have an aspie awareness, I have been more hard on myself in some ways, more ‘in my head’ when I am in a group, observing my thoughts and criticising myself when I should be listening to what people are saying instead of thinking whether they can tell that I am not being very chatty or whether I am smiling at the right parts of their conversation, just enough to make them comfortable but not too much that it’s off-putting for them, or whether they can tell that I am different…

Lorelai Gilmore - Gilmore Girls

It’s just been intense. I had to take a break. And the only why I know how to ‘switch off’ from one obsession is to find another. So I have been watching the whole series of Gilmore Girls on Netflix in my spare time. And my, it’s been good! So many aspie character traits (not intentional, I don’t think) are celebrated on that show 🙂

I will come back soon, promise.